Ah... Prozac

This is going to be rambling - just wanted to warn you up front. hehe

I started to take Prozac for my depression about 3 years ago and it really helped. At that time, I was in a job I hated, a marriage that was in trouble, and family matters weren't all that great. Almost a year ago, I decided on my own to stop taking it. I was feeling so much better... I had found a new job, I had gotten divorced and things were going great. Well, I think I've been in a downward spiral for those 12 months and I'm going back on it today.

My DH and I were supposed to get our pictures taken last night, but he called me when I was on my way home and told me he "didn't feel pretty" so I cancelled. I should mention that it was HIS idea to get these stupid things, so then I bent over backwards to get them scheduled so we could get the prints before Christmas, and then he cancels. Ugh!

He is on Atkins to lose weight right now, and while that's great for him, this seems to decrease his sex drive. Or maybe it's the fact that I've gained weight? One can never be sure. While the lack of sex drive wouldn't bother me all that much normally, it does now because we are TTC, and of course, you can't win if you don't play. So, basically, I temp every morning with no hope of getting pg this cycle.

To top it off, I had an on-going theme in my dreams last night: babies. I'm so sad that I haven't gotten pg yet. It doesn't surprise me, since I do know where babies come from, but still, I'm sad.

So, as you can see, I haven't taken my medication yet this morning. But I'm on my way to do so right after I post this. Hopefully, future posts won't be this dark.